I swear, I will never understand all the emotions I go thru with my infertility.
Today, I had a friend give birth to a beautiful baby girl today. I am thrilled for her. 100% thrilled. And its not like its her first or a hard achieved pregnancy. (Its her 3rd baby.) But I'm just happy for her.
But when I think of other pregnant people, I am 100% insanely jealous and bitter.
I can't figure out why. But I'm working on it.
I find myself being happier for some verses others. I think it is a natural reaction. Although I do trend to be happier for woman who have really suffered before they were able to get pregnant.
ReplyDeleteI think it all depends on the relationship you have with the mother (or father), how you were feeling when you heard they were pregnant, if you're having a good day or not, etc. I know I found it hard to hear about older women getting pregnant. It really rubbed salt into the wound - that I couldn't get pregnant and they could do it so much later. Even my sister. I was happy for her, but sad for me. Emotions aren't rational. They just are.
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